Week 16 Thoughts

I left my maternity pants (the only pair I own that is no where close to fitting properly) downstairs in the washer, and I also threw my belly band in that load thinking "Yay! clean maternity clothes..." What I forgot was that I have ZERO energy past 530, so the clothes stayed in the washer. Which brings me to my morning dilemma of getting dressed. Maternity pants? Crap. Belly band!? Nope. Okay. So I figure I'll just wear my regular pants and be a little uncomfortable during the day.

No.

They don't fit. Like, REALLY don't fit. Hmm. Hilarious. I'm laughcrying at this by now (all of my fellow preggos and moms know exactly what I'm talking about.) Thankfully I have ONE (YEP, ONE!) dress that is work appropriate that I could squeeze into for the day. Hilarious. I'm giggling thinking about that morning.

Now I know to only wash my maternity things on the weekends (no matter how gross they are during the week.) I'm excited for the day when I drop food while I'm eating (this happens multiple times a day) and it lands on my belly instead of my pants. I'm sure when this day comes, I'll be wishing I was this small again. You know, typical girl.

Also, my boobs have gotten MASSIVE! And I'm only in month 4. I am screwed. I already don't know what to do with these honkers, and they're just going to keep getting bigger. Fantastic! I polled two of my close friends (who are mommas!) about this situation and what's the best way to remedy it. Both were pretty unsure and hadn't found anything they LOVED yet, so I ventured out to Target on a mission. Buy a bigger bra that will fit for all of two weeks before I have to upgrade again.

So I see a pregnant lady. And I ask.

I know, ridiculous right? But I feel like when you're pregnant, there are no rules on social behavior (please see my post about leaving my pants unbuttoned while I'm at work and forgetting to button them back up when I leave my desk. Oops.)

She says that she just upgraded her size and called it a day.

So that's what I did.

And I'm excited to report that I feel SO much better. or a few weeks.

Kyle has officially said "you definitely look pregnant." It makes my heart happy. I'm a little weirded out by the fact that I have a stomach when I'm standing up (and wearing the proper clothing to show it off) but when I lay down it goes away. WEIRD! I'm sure the day will come when I lay down and BOOM, still there. I'm really comfortable in this pregnancy. I can honestly say it hasn't been what I expected and I'm surprised by how few questions I have. My appointments are super short. I thought I would be totally worried through the entire thing, and I've been pretty chill (well, emotionally I'm a wreck - as in don't tell me I'm pretty unless you're actually looking at me - poor Kyle, I know. He's been such a trooper through my mood swings and multiple cry sessions a day.) I'm really glad I switched providers - I feel like my midwife was the best option for me. She trusts my judgement and respects my instincts as a mother.

Another interesting 'symptom' I'm dealing with is compassion. I'm extremely over compassionate (if that's a thing) and every "Pray for ____ with pediatric cancer" brings me to tears. Insane tears. I want to give them all of our money! I can't imagine what their family is going through. The daily struggle of "am I going to be able to hug my child tomorrow" is devastating. I feel like we have been blessed with SO much that we have to give back where we can. And we have been. UPDATE for Kyle - hey, we've been donating money to these families. ;) I wish there was more. I would hope that if we were in that situation, others would pray for us and help in any capacity they could. #emotionalmomma #cantevenimage

On that note, I will end this completely random rant. :) I am going to love re-reading these years from now when I'm thinking about getting knocked up again. ;)

Week 16

How far along? 16 weeks 3 days

16 weeks 

How big is baby? It's an AVOCADO!!!

Total weight gain/loss: Still right at 4 pounds. 

Maternity clothes? Oh yeah. I've been meaning to go shop for some more, but I've just been so tired and haven't felt up to it. 

Sleep: I've been sleeping really well lately! It's so nice. I think I wear myself out so much during the day (you know, sitting at my desk at work, then sitting on the couch when I get home) that I don't even wake up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom. I wake up around 5 to pee and let Macy outside. It's not too awful. 

Best moment this week: When I learned that the Bargain can now hear my voice :) Thrilled to tears. Literally. I'm emotional. 

Movement: I wasn't confident in what I was feeling because I thought it was way too early, but I've definitely been feeling the Bargain move around in there. It doesn't happen often, but I sure do smile when it happens! I'm excited for Ky to be able to feel it from the outside! And I'm excited for the dance parties that I'm sure will ensue in a few weeks. 

Food cravings: Nothing too spectacular. McDonalds sausage burritos. Delicious. Other than that.. Nothing too crazy. Looking at the picture of the avocado makes me want guacamole. YUM!

Food aversions: Black beans aren't my favorite right now, but I'm sure if they were in front of me, I would eat them. 

Gender: Same as the past 11 weeks!

Labor Signs: .

Pregnancy symptoms: Getting bigger! I feel like I look awkward in clothes still. I'm sure that will change when I FOR SURE look pregnant to the general public. My boss pointed out to me yesterday that I really "popped" and she could tell. She also begged to start telling people. Have at it. 

Belly button in or out? Still in. I've been worried about this to be honest... I'm really hoping that mine doesn't come out since it's so sensitive (thank you shingles) and I have hope because I have had multiple people tell me they have deep belly buttons and they never popped. The things we worry about while pregnant! 

What I miss: Not being tired all of the time. 

What I am looking forward to: The spring weather that is heading out way :)

Upcoming appointments/events: Nothing too exciting. Just a normal week!

Milestones: Growing out of my clothes quickly! 

I thought in the second trimester I'm supposed to have more energy. Dirty liars. ;) 

Week 15

How far along? 15 weeks and 6 days

Ignore my weird face and look at that BUMP!

How big is baby? The size of an orange!! Jeez! 

Total weight gain/loss: Officially according to my doctors scale, 4 lbs. 

Maternity clothes? YES! I went out last week and finally bought a pair of maternity jeans. HOLY JEEZ what a difference they make. I had no idea. I was putting it off because I heard how depressing it is when your pants don't fit anymore, but your maternity clothes just look silly... WEEEEELL, guess what!? They fit! My belly is officially popped out and it's AWESOME! I wore my new jeans and maternity shirt to dinner and Kyle said "this is what you should be taking your weekly pictures in! You look pregnant!" Surprise! Honey I AM pregnant. Phew. Glad to have that off my chest. It's really nice to know that he still thinks I'm pretty though :)

Sleep: Sleep has been rough again this week. I'm super sick (with a cold...) and it's been miserable. I can't breathe, I get hot, I have a hard time getting enough air... It's rough. Plus we let Macy sleep in out bed (mistake, I know) but she kept having accidents and I was tired of cleaning them up. Now when she wakes up in the middle of the night, we have 4 little puppy paws on our faces letting us know she's ready for a potty break. #yep #thisisourlife

Best moment this week: Definitely hearing the heartbeat at our 15 week appointment. Still up in the 150's. It makes my heart sooooo happy when I hear my midwife say "it's perfect. You're doing an amazing job of keeping this baby happy and healthy. Good job momma." Tears. Everytime. I love our little bargain. The BEST part of it, Kyle was there. He's obviously not as emotional about it as I am (sue me) but he did get a kick out of listening to his heart beat. Oh, and my midwife also said there was nothing wrong with me eating Ramen Noodles. As long as the baby was happy, we're golden. Holla!

Movement: YEP! Totally felt it yesterday. I thought it was SUPER early to feel anything, but according to Google (my frienemy lately) I'm right on track. It didn't feel like popcorn popping or butterflies, it felt like... a mouse in my lower tummy. Just rolling around in there. Weird. BUT very, very cool. It was almost like an ultrasound wand going over my belly (but from the inside.) I can't wait to start feeling Bargain move around a little more. 

Food cravings: A turkey sandwich (which I can't have). That's what I've been craving HARDCORE and it's just so mean and hateful that I can't have it. I'm also wanting summer sausage. I asked if Kyle could pick some up at the store for me and he asked where it was in the store. I told him I had no idea and that it was just a craving I had. He came home WITHOUT SUMMER SAUSAGE. What.

He took that as it wasn't something I didn't really want because I didn't know where it was.

What.

I'm still a little bitter about it, but I no longer have that craving (turkey sandwich is still high on the list) so I guess he can get off the hook for that one...

Food aversions: Food just doesn't sound very good to me. I'm not into Chinese food right now, and I'm kind of off of Mexican. Boo. I hope those come back because I really enjoy both of those.

Gender: In my heart I still feel like it's a boy, which is why I'm still convinced it's a girl. 

Labor Signs: I will probably die the second I actually start having labor symptoms. HOLY JEEZ.

Pregnancy symptoms: I'm moody and cry daily. I get upset at the silliest things, but as you mommas out there know, I legitimately can't help it. My hormones are crazy and I'm tired. I hear it only gets worse from here. YAY.

Belly button in or out? Still in. I wonder when this guy normally starts to pop out? Thankfully(?) I have a really deep belly button, so it I may get to keep my cute tummy for a few more weeks. Here's hoping. 

What I miss: Turkey sandwiches. Not crying every day. Being a nice person. Being able to breathe. You know, the usual. (Sushi)

What I am looking forward to: Signing up for pre-natal classes! I'm looking into the Bradley Method (it's a form of natural child birth preparation) but apparently it's totally different here than it is in South Carolina. In SC I had a provider picked out, my classes set (which ones I wanted to take) and the hospital (and please note this took place years before having a baby was even on my radar). BUT my midwife went to midwifery school (yep, that's a thing) in SC and has experienced the Bradley method here and says it's totally different. She said that she wasn't too worried about me taking the class here (but South Carolina was better for that) because I seemed to have an open mind, and I guess they are really big into OB bashing here. Who knows. I hope I don't have that type of experience, but I also have complete faith that if there is something wrong with me or the Bargain during labor, an OB will take great care of us. I trust my midwife to make the best prognosis and provide me with the information I need to make an educated decision. I will not be bullied into making a choice when it is not in the best interest for us or our labor. #endrant I am very thankful to have such a strong support system here.

Upcoming appointments/events: Another 4 weeks to go before our anatomy scan. :)

Milestones: I've been really sick this weekend and I survived. Barely. But I made it. Feeling worse today, but maybe that means I'll feel better tomorrow!?

Update: Turns out it was more than a cold and I actually have bronchitis! Sucky. She also said the symptoms are grossly overactive, and the best part is, I can't take any medication. This is fun. I no longer feel like such a wimp for whining about being so miserable. The doctor said that I would be in for a rough two weeks, and so far she's been right. 

Week 14

How far along? 14 weeks 6 days

How big is baby? The size of a lemon!! (Yep, this excited every single week!)

Total weight gain/loss: According to my scale, I actually haven't gained any weight yet. According to my doctors scale - well that's probably a different story.

Maternity clothes? Still not yet, but I'm going to be in desperate need of some pants ASAP. 

Sleep: Sleeping well. Most of the vacation I didn't even have to wake up at night to pee! I was just so dang tired. 

Best moment this week: Crusin' with  my honey! Definitely LOVED our baby announcement on facebook. So legit. Kyle did an amazing job with putting that together. We made it on Friday and we could NOT stop looking at it. We love our little Bargain. 

Movement: Still nothing, although I could have SWORN I felt something weird while on the ship. It was like a flutter in my lower abdomen and definitely wasn't gas. 

Food cravings: This was a rough week for food. All I really wanted was some ramen noodles and a ppudding cup. Guess what they DON'T have on luxury boats. RIGHT!? I know. So I ate a lot of chicken tenders (puke) and cereal. There was one night where I could not stomach the idea of eating anything for dinner that they were offering, so I had to munch on some leftover cereal in bed. Rough.

Food aversions: Really not feeling anything fried right now. 

Gender: Whoooo knows (Still thinking boy, but assuming it's a girl)

Labor Signs: Still nothing. Thank you sweet baby Jesus.

Pregnancy symptoms: Food cravings, constantly tired (I'm totally embarassed at how tired I get walking up and down stairs), tight pants, constantly thirsty, I may be a tad bit moody (thank GOD Kyle is a patient man). 

Belly button in or out? Still in... 

What I miss: Liking food. Well, I guess I've always been a little (maybe a lot) testy with food. I like something one day, and then I refuse to look at it the next day. Guess I'm a toddler. Typical. I also miss sushi. (Surprised by this yet!?)

What I am looking forward to: Signing up for birthing classes? 

Upcoming appointments/events: Thursday for the 15 week appointment! Holla. 

Milestones: We're facebook official ;) Kind of a big deal.

No really, the Deal puns never stop #wecantstop #wewontstop

#hashtag.

Week 13

How far along? 13 weeks and 4 days!!

How big is baby?

Total weight gain/loss: I'm still afraid to step on a scale. Probably 10 lbs maybe? 

Maternity clothes? I officially can no longer button most of my pants comfortably, so the belly band is a daily occurrence. 

Sleep: Still sleeping 10+ hours a night. Most nights I only have to get up once to go to the bathroom, but sometimes (if I stay awake past 9pm) I don't wake up and my kidneys hurt SO bad when I finally wake up.  

Best moment this week: 

Movement: Still nothing. 

Food cravings: Not spaghetti. Can't stand the smell anymore. BUT I do enjoy pudding again. I would kill for some buffalo chicken dip as well as some fried pickles. 

Food aversions: Spaghetti.

Gender: Boy?

Labor Signs: .

Pregnancy symptoms: My boobs have doubled in size, I cry at EVERYTHING (and I mean EVERYTHING), I have a hard time focusing, and I feel the need to eat more often. I cry frequently and it's getting harder to calm me down once the tears start rolling. 

Belly button in or out? In. I wonder when it will start making its appearance? 

What I miss: Sushi (I'm not sure this will ever change).

What I am looking forward to: Sushi. I mean, the cruise this week! We leave in 4 days! 

Upcoming appointments/events: Not until the week we get back.

Milestones: I've cried most days. We also told Sophie!! She's pretty thrilled to FINALLY be a big sister again! She's been bugging us about it for about 8 months. :)



Update: I have since had buffalo chicken dip AND fried pickles - and I swear if either of those came near me today, I'm pretty sure I would vomit on someone.